Good post on the challenges of ‘moving on’ post-treatment that captures the mixed emotions well. Quote:
Once cancer has touched your life nothing will ever be the same. Life is uncertain for all of us, but those with a cancer diagnosis have a heightened awareness of that uncertainty. Cancer lays bare your vulnerability and underlines the uncertainty of life. I have come to believe that surviving cancer is more complicated than simply being disease free. It is a continual process, which involves taking the best possible care of your health, acknowledging all that has happened and knowing how and when to ask for support. Only then can you start to move forward with your life and uncover a greater purpose and meaning. This is true of all survivors whatever challenges life presents to us.
While I largely moved on after my auto stem cell transplant, pushing many of the dark thoughts way back into the recesses of my mind, relapse and the allo SCT changed that. I enjoy life and Iam appreciative of every good day I have but remain acutely aware of just how contingent life is, and remain cautious in making longer-term plans.